Tremors in the force

Seems like every year at this time, when my website domain renewal is up, I try to come back to this site and give it "one more try."  This time I am not fooling myself. I can't keep a thought together long enough that the money will be worth it. 

I have struggled with hope for some time and the last few weeks has been as bad as ever. How can I share my faith and show the beauty of God grace if I suffer from an acute lack of joy and hope? How do I convince anyone that Catholicism is worthwhile if I am always fearful and pessimistic?