Things have transpired at my work this past week that have caused me to have a lot of anger in my heart. I am not sure if I would call what I feel hatred, but it is awful close. What the events were are not important, but lets just say that a ball was dropped and big trouble was had. One particular person has been on a rampage blaming me ever since and I find myself in a position I am not accustomed to, I am not sure how to respond.
I am a grand master, gold medalist, world champion at lashing out in response. I am world class at responding out of anger and going straight for the kill shot. One of the things I have worked very hard at checking that sort of response. It is the next step and what is the appropriate way to respond that has me bumfuzzled.
I must admit that somewhere in there is mixed in sadness because my superiors are not supporting me. I don't know how much of a roll that plays in my level of confusion, but it certainly is a part. Part of the problem also is that I have a new supervisor, one that isn't familiar with the history between this person lashing out and me. A history of her making wild outlandish accusations toward me and not being called on them by her superiors or mine.
I will just have to continue to pray for peace and grace. I knew a time of desolation was coming, I had been enjoying the blessing of an extended period of consolation. I will continue to trust in God.
"If you want to be happy, really really happy, use your talents to serve others." - Eduardo Verastegui