Luke 8:14
14 As for the seed that fell among thorns, they are the ones who have heard, but as they go along, they are choked by the anxieties and riches and pleasures of life, and they fail to produce mature fruit.
In reading the parable of the sower was thinking which of the descriptions best describe me and my journey up to this point. I would really like to think that I am the seed that falls on the rich soil. Yet, the more I think about it, the more I believe I am the seed described in verse 14. I attend Mass, listen to the Priest and have super intentions. I have devoted my life to service as I believe God wants and gives a great deal of my time to others. Yet, my prayer life is constantly falling to the daily time crunch. The joy that should explode from me as a result of the many undeserved blessing I enjoy is replaced with anger, fear and uncertainty.
The question becomes how do I change so that my seeds fall on the rich soil. I guess if I knew that I wouldn't fail to produce mature fruit. It is easy to say all the things that can be done, it is another to actually follow through with them. I guess I have until the start of Lent to figure out how to use that season to enrichen my soil. I am certain that prayer is the only tool with which to de-thorn my life. Thanks to my new smart phone I have new apps to wield that tool.
"If you want to be happy, really really happy, use your talents to serve others." - Eduardo Verastegui
The ramblings of a man who fell away from the practice of his Catholic faith, only to return upon the realization that he could no longer call himself Catholic without being fully in union with the Magisterium of the Catholic Chirch. This is about growing up Catholic and growing as a Catholic.
Wednesday, February 16, 2011
Wednesday, February 9, 2011
Note to self
Luke 7:46 - "Why do you call me 'Lord, Lord,' but not do what command?"
I get upset with myself when my humanity raises its ugly head. Even while my actions are mostly other-centered, my thoughts and prayers are self-centered to an even greater degree. My mind, heart and soul are in a constant struggle between my need to emotionally and spiritually work through those burdens God has sought fit to bless me with in prayer and the guilt of not praying for others almost at all. This struggle plays itself out by me not praying.
As Luke's Gospel shows, should focus doing as God commands and simply focus on my relationship with Him and allow Him to guide my prayer where he knows I need it most. By focusing on what my prayer life is not, I am actually denying God's greatness and showing no faith that He will lead me where I need to go to better do as he commands.
"If you want to be happy, really really happy, use your talents to serve others." - Eduardo Verasteg
I get upset with myself when my humanity raises its ugly head. Even while my actions are mostly other-centered, my thoughts and prayers are self-centered to an even greater degree. My mind, heart and soul are in a constant struggle between my need to emotionally and spiritually work through those burdens God has sought fit to bless me with in prayer and the guilt of not praying for others almost at all. This struggle plays itself out by me not praying.
As Luke's Gospel shows, should focus doing as God commands and simply focus on my relationship with Him and allow Him to guide my prayer where he knows I need it most. By focusing on what my prayer life is not, I am actually denying God's greatness and showing no faith that He will lead me where I need to go to better do as he commands.
"If you want to be happy, really really happy, use your talents to serve others." - Eduardo Verasteg
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